Sad

Today I found out that an arrest was made in connection to the murder of Jeremy Scully, who was one of my pole vaulting coaches.

I’m sad all over again for the loss.

I’m sad for the person who killed my friend. Two types of people commit crimes; those with big hurts and those with severe mental illness.

I’m sad that I don’t know what to do with the person who killed my friend. All the great religious profits would undoubtedly say forgiveness. Forgiveness seems to have magical powers of healing and peace making.

But how? How do I see past my own hurt, to connect with the hurt of the person who hurt me and so many others?

Can I still continue to hurt and forgive? If not, how do I stop hurting?
I have some reading and thinking to do. There are a lot of incredible stories out their. I would really like to take an abnormal psychology class as well.

I’m sad that as a society the best idea we have come up with for dealing with social hazards is prison. Prison isn’t a place of healing.

I’m sad that the person who killed my friend will be dehumanized into nothing more than a murderer. I am sad that we will probably take our collective hurt to the point of murder.

I am hopeful that one day society will acquire such a heightened state of collective consciousness and responsibility that prisons will be archaic and crime unheard of.